New-Self

so everyone's been noticing some changes to me. I guess it's the fact that my boyfriend has affected who i am today. and i'm very happy. I don't go out often and i don't drink often. I have made promises that I am honestly willing to keep. I'm proud of myself that I have kept grounded. I didn't really enjoy going out before - i just felt like i had to because I had nothing else better to do. Although now i just stay home and sleep. One problem with being in a long distance relationship is the fact you don't see each other. It's really hard to interact via text / telephone. I always have thought of myself as being a person who thought that physical contact with that person was necessary to keep a relationship going. But i have realized that developing trust & love through the distance is as important as that. The distance has made me see our relationship in a different sight - knowing that person actually cares about keeping it working and going helps me know if it's worth putting forth effort. Although there are many rocky days - in the end of the day it's love that's important - and I love my boyfriend ♥

Party.

With my school schedule I barely have time to go out - let alone party. My boyfriend has also told me to not go out because it's 'dangerous' - hehehe. so I have cut down on partying. Although last week a couple of my friends and myself hit up a club ; it was alright - I actually danced. Had to make use of the $40 - entrance. SO i'm slowly becoming broke. UGH! But clubbing is really - not my scene. I'm more of the sit at home and watch basketball while eating chips and drinking beer kind of person. =)

Very Late Post : New Years Resolution

Wow February is almost here - time sure does fly by. I have yet to make my new years resolution list. So lets see - how many of these I can keep!

- Sleep at a decent hour (so far so good)
- Don't exert too much in the relationship [...i'm doing it :-) ]
- Cut down on spending
- STOP PROCRASTINATING and do work ahead of time
- KEEP BEING ORGANIZED

4 Months

I am so behind this. School is back up on Monday - and I still didn't blog about our 4 months. Hehehe. 4 months was last december 23rd. Definitely fought a lot after. Hehehe. Christmas and New Years past and we fought during those festive times and after.

How are long distance relationships working without fighting. Honestly. When New Years and Christmas hit - fight fight fight. Ridiculous. I guess in the sense that you're both missing out on those holiday's together. You're with different people - different time zones. I have to learn to keep my head cool. I have so many goals for this relationship to work - that I have to start doing , should definitely be part of a new years resolution list. MUST DO THAT tonight (hehehe)

:)

Things I Did in 2009

- Finished 2nd year of Uni (April 2009)
- Traveled to Calgary TWICE (Feb.2009 & June 2009)
- Traveled to the Philippines (August 2009)
- Got Car (April 2009)
- Got somewhat Organized (room redecoration)
...TBC

Lesson in Life

There is a point in life when you get tired of chasing everyone & trying to fix everything but it’s not giving up. It’s realizing that you don’t need certain people & all the drama they bring. As you grow up you realize it’s less important to have more friends & more important to have real ones. There are only so many times you allow somebody to let you down before you can’t handle the disappointment anymore. You come to realize that in the end everyone turns out to be the person they swore they'd never become. You learn promises can be broken just as quickly as they are made & even that one person that was never supposed to let you down probably will. Sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. What’s meant to be will end up good & what’s not, wont. At times people need to fight for you & if they don’t you just have to move on & realize what you gave them was more than what they were willing to give you. Always fight until you can’t fight anymore & then be fought for. Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness, laugh when you can, apologize when you should, & let go of what you can’t change. Love deeply & forgive quickly, take chances, give everything, & have no regrets. Life is too short to be unhappy. Always forgive but never forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change & things go wrong but always remember life goes on. The world is full of jealousy & hatred, fighting over pointless things & people that bring you little or no satisfaction. Grow up & accept what it is because life is too short to sit there & regret everything you do. You do things for a reason, you make decisions for a reason, you laugh for a reason & you cry for a reason. So if it’s something you chose then why regret something that at one point made you happy. Life goes faster than you think. Those who are yours probably won’t be one day. People will walk in, make you happy & walk out like you don’t even know them. You can stay awake all night & nobody will know or care. Lies don’t get you anywhere. Drama is everywhere. It’s easier to talk, easier to hear, but almost impossible to do. Everything happens for a reason. People change so you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so that you will eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, & sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Mistakes are just another lesson learned & a second chance is just an opportunity to do right. In life we do things. Some we wish we had never done, some we wish we could replay a million times in our heads, but they all make us who we are. & in the end, those experiences shape every detail about us. If we were to reverse any of them, we wouldn’t be at the exact place that we are today. So just live. Make mistakes, & have wonderful times but never ever second guess who you are, where you have been, & most importantly, where it is that you’re going.